Mizpah: Day 10 of 21 - Ummm? That's NOT Good Will!

Mizpah: Day 10 of 21 - Ummm? That's NOT Good Will!: Arise and Shine for the glory of the Lord has risen among you. Isaiah 60:1 I met a friend for a lunch date.  We visited for several hours....

Day 12 of 21- New hat! New Shoes! I got a New Attitude!

Arise and Shine for the glory of the Lord has risen among you - Isaiah 60:1

I saw a picture of an eagle talon yesterday and it reminded me of this dream I had two years ago (January 8/9, 2014)

Dreamt I was walking with my family; open skies before us.  I remember DESIRING to SEE an Eagle.  I remember looking up and expecting to see an eagle.  My family made fun of me.  Why do you keep looking up?  What do you think you're going to see?  I told them my desire, then they laughed at me as if I was foolish having faith to believe that I would see what I desired.  They were walking behind me.  I was walking ahead of them and continually looking up.  I looked up and I saw a huge, gorgeous Bald Eagle soaring with over a half of loaf of bread in its talons.

I pointed to it and showed my family the eagle.  They saw THE SIGN, THE WONDER and were amazed.  They were astonished that an eagle was actually there.  It wasn't native to this place.  It flew down and landed on my left shoulder.  I was fearful but excited that it landed and rested on my shoulder.

The eagle began speaking to me.  He was telling me what direction to go to.  He led me to a path.  It was a riverbank.  Once I was at the riverbank, the eagle disappeared.  I was told I had to go into the water.  It was gross and cold.  I didn't want to go in.  My family told me it was the only way.  They went in and I said, "No, I don't want to."  I turned to the left (same side the eagle was) and saw a bridge in the water.  It was like a metal tunnel under the water and I could walk on it to get to the other side.  I was afraid to cross it because it was slippery.  One step at a time.  I did slip and stumbled catching myself by straddling the tube.  I got back up and got to the other side.  One the other side I had NEW PERSPECTIVE.  God had made a way where there was no way.

In the beginning of the dream, I had desired to see an eagle in the open sky.  My family didn't believe me that we would see one.

32And Jesus stopped and called them, and said, "What do you want Me to do for you?" 33They said to Him, "Lord, we want our eyes to be opened." 34Moved with compassion, Jesus touched their eyes; and immediately they regained their sight and followed Him. (Matthew 20:32-34).

Faith moves the Lord to compassion.  Without faith, it's impossible to please God.  (Hebrews 11:6).

Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart. (Psalm 37:4)

"Father, I want those you have given me to be with me where I am, and to see my glory, the glory you have given me because you loved me before the creation of the world. John 17:24

I desired my family to see God's glory.  I wanted my family to see God's faithfulness.  I wanted them to see a sign that would make them wonder.

And I, when I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all people to myself." (John 12:32)

Not only did God give me the desires of my heart in this dream.  The eagle came with PROVISION.  The bread symbolizes provision. 

¹⁰ May your kingdom come and what you want be done, here on earth as it is in heaven.¹¹ Give us the food we need for each day. (Matthew 6:10-11) NCV

An eagle represents the prophetic gifting.  They have eyes to see.  The eagle has an ability to see hidden spiritual truths, rising above the material to see the spiritual.   The Bible carries references to the eagle as the messenger of God, and as a link between heaven on earth.

In earlier times in Israel, when a man went to inquire of God, thus he said, "Come, and let us go to the SEER;" for he who is now called a Prophet was before called a SEER. (1 Samuel 9:9) 
     
….I carried you on eagles' wings and brought you to myself. Exodus 19:4

…. but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31

The prophetic gift came and rested on my left shoulder.  The signification of shoulder is all power.

Isaiah 9:6-7 -6For a child will be born to us, a son will be given to us; And the government will rest on His shoulders; And His name will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Eternal Father, Prince of Peace. 7There will be no end to the increase of His government or of peace, On the throne of David and over his kingdom, To establish it and to uphold it with justice and righteousness From then on and forevermore.

The prophetic gifting that the Lord has placed upon my life is the all-powerful dunamis of Father, Son, Holy Spirit.  Not by Power, not by Might, but by HIS spirit (Zechariah 4:6)

He will lead and guide me to places that others may tell me opposite to the divinely inspired way. Holy Spirit will lead me into unchartered paths of ALL Things Possible for those who believe (Mark 9:23).  He makes a way, where there is no way (Isaiah 43:19).

As I listened to Holy Spirit, he showed me a hidden path, a hidden bridge to cross the waters so that I would not get cold or defiled.

This dream was very comforting to me.  I woke up singing the Patti LaBelle song in my Spirit..."New Attitude."

I'm feelin' good from my head to my shoes
Know where I'm goin' and I know what to do
I tidied up my point of view
I got a new attitude

Runnin' hot, runnin' cold
I was runnin' into overload
It was extreme, ex-ex-ex-ex-ex-extreme
It took it so high, so low
So low, there was nowhere to go
Like a dream

Somehow the wires uncrossed, the tables were turned
Never knew I had such a lesson to learn

I'm feelin' good from my head to my shoes
Know where I'm goin' and I know what to do
I tidied up my point of view

I got a new attitude

I'm in control, my worries are few
'Cause I've got love like I never knew
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
I got a new attitude

I'm wearing a new dress (New), new hair (New)
Brand new ideas, as a matter of fact I've changed for good
It must have been the cool night, new moon, new slight change
More than the figure but I feel like I should, yes

Somehow the wires uncrossed, the tables were turned
Never knew I had such a lesson to learn

I'm feelin' good from my head to my shoes
Know where I'm goin' and I know what to do
I tidied up my point of view

I got a new attitude

As I sang that song running around the house, brush in hand...I began to pray my own prayer of renewal. 

Lord, I thank you for a:
New Season
New Ministry
Now is the time!
Newness of Christ
New Wineskins
New Win
New Signs
New Wonders
New Outpouring of Holy Spirit
New Life
New Baptism of Holy Fire
New Believers saved
New Love and zeal for Christ
New Green Sprouts of Life & Hope

A new day of 'No more  getting passed by or overlooked.  I thank you, Lord, for your Favor!  I thank you for your Glory shining brightly in me and through me.  Illuminating Your glory and goodness!  No more mourning!  A new day for dancing and rejoicing!  Joy comes in the morning!  It's a new morning with new mercies and grace abundant.  I thank you for New growth, new promises filled to overflowing with a future and hope.  I will continually look up.  I will continually ask, seek, expect, and listen.  I love you, Lord and by your Spirit you will lead me.

Day 13 of 21 -Day 13 of 21 -Seer, Prophet, Watchman on the Wall

Arise & Shine for the Glory of the Lord has risen among you.  Isaiah 60:1

Today, I want to give a little insight as to what the eagle and prophetic gift have in common.  I want to share of one of my gifts with you.  I have a strong sense of just KNOWING.  I have very insightful, prophetic dreams.  I began studying a little deeper into this subject of having a Seer Anointing. 

The Seer by Jim Goll goes into great depth describing the function of a Seer Prophet:

What is the difference between a prophet and a seer? For now, let us say that all true seers are prophets, but not all prophets are seers. The Operation of the Seer Anointing

Within the overall realm of the prophet lies the particular and distinctive realm of the Seer. The word "seer" describes a particular type of prophet who receives a particular type of prophetic revelation or impartation.

The Old Testament uses two words primarily to refer to a seer: ra'ah and chozeh. Ra'ah literally means "to see," particularly in the sense of seeing visions. Other meanings include to "gaze," to "look upon," and to "perceive." Chozeh literally means "a beholder in vision" and can also be translated as "gazer" or "stargazer."

With these definitions now in place, the distinction between a prophet (nabiy') and a seer (ra'ah or chozeh) becomes a little clearer. When it comes to prophetic revelation, a prophet is primarily an inspired hearer and then speaker, while a seer is primarily visual. In other words, the prophet is the communicative dimension and the seer is the receptive dimension. Whereas nabiy emphasizes the active work of the prophet in speaking forth a message from God, ra'ah and chozeh focus on the experience or means by which the prophet "sees or perceives" that message.

The first lays emphasis on a prophet's relationship with the people; the other, on their revelatory relationship with God.


The Power of the Seer Anointing Everyone needs a vision to sustain them in life.

Proverbs 29:18 states, "Where there is no vision, the people are unrestrained, but happy is he who keeps the law." This verse in the New International Version reads: "Where there is no revelation, the people cast off restraint; but blessed is he who keeps the law." Some other translations, such as the New Revised Standard Version, use the word "prophecy" instead of "vision" or "revelation." The point is clear: without prophecy, without divine revelation or vision, people will cast off all restraint. They will run wild because they have no guidance - no vision. The Word of God - His law - provides vision and guidance for living, and those who follow it are blessed.

As Christians, we are called to be a people of vision. We must learn to set a goal or target in front of our eyes to gaze upon. It is only when we aim at something that we have any chance of hitting it! The apostle Paul set his sights on knowing Christ, which he acknowledged was a lifelong process:

Philippians 3:13-15a
"13 Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. 15 Let us therefore, as many as are perfect, have this attitude."

Like Paul, we need to be a people of vision. Let us set our sights on the Lord and aim at His goals. The seer will move your heart and stir up your hunger for intimacy with God, because "the seer's goal is to reveal the man Christ Jesus!"

Formerly considered "strange," the SEER anointing is becoming known as much more mainstream in the Church today. And that's good news for you. I can hear many of you saying, "Finally, they'll know I'm not crazy...in fact, I know I'm not crazy!"

Times are changing! The seers are being restored to their place of insight, counsel, and the word of the Lord! Here come the Seers!

If there are true seers today, and there surely are, then we must have our aim and focus clear. We must see Jesus! In all our seeing - let's be like John the beloved. Let's get in the Spirit and release the true prophetic spirit by revealing a testimony of Jesus (Revelation 19:10). He is the one I long to see. He is the one for whom my heart yearns and pants. He is the goal and prize of my life.

 In all our seeing - let us see and reveal the man Christ Jesus!

“SEER” Hebrew (7200, 7203, 2374, 2372)Hebrew 7200: ra’ah, raw-aw’; to see, look, view; to realize, know, consider; to be selected; to become visible, appear, show oneself; to be seen; to cause to see, show; to be shown; to look at each other, meet with; a general word for visual perception. Hebrew 7203: ro’eh, ro-eh’; a seer; vision. Hebrew 2374: Chozeh, kho-zeh’; seer, one who receives a communication from God, with a possible focus that the message had a visual component; agreement. Hebrew 2372: Chazah, khaw-zaw’; to see, to look, observe, gaze, by extension: to choose (one thing or another); to have visions, to prophesy.

“PROPHET” Hebrew (5030, 5012, 5197)Hebrew 5030: nabiy’, naw-bee’; a prophet (true or false). Hebrew 5012: naba’, naw-baw’; to prophesy, speak as a prophet; prophesy has its focus on encouraging or restoring covenant faithfulness, the telling of future events encourages obedience or warns against disobedience. Hebrew 5197: nataph, naw-taf’; to pour down; gently fall, drip; to (drip words) preach, prophesy.

Lloyd Philips explained the three type/kind of a Prophets when he wrote:

"Biblically there are three Hebrew words that are translated as a prophet, two of which are translated as a seer. There is raah which is translated seer, meaning someone who sees open visions. That same word is used for someone who sees with natural eyes. Then there is chozeh. This word emphasizes spiritual apprehension, of internal visions. And lastly nabiy which is the most common biblical word in terms of the prophetic. It means someone who has the Spirit working within them. It is a word for inspiration. Every prophet receives this type of inspiration. Every prophet will be the nabiy kind, but not every prophet will be the raah or chozeh kind"

Jesus urgently needs his watchmen to get back up on the watchtower where he has appointed them.

I have posted watchmen on your walls, O Jerusalem; they will never be silent day or night.  You who call on the Lord, give yourselves no rest (Is 62:6).

Israel's watchmen are blind, they all lack knowledge; they are all mute dogs, they cannot bark; they lie around and dream, they love to sleep. They are dogs with mighty appetites; they never have enough. They are shepherds who lack understanding; they all turn to their own way, each seeks his own gain (Is 56:10,11).

I appointed watchmen over you and said, 'Listen to the sound of the trumpet!' But you said, 'We will not listen.' Therefore hear, O nations; observe, O witnesses, what will happen to them. Hear, O earth: I am bringing disaster on this people, the fruit of their schemes, because they have not listened to my words and have rejected my law (Jer 6:17-19).

When a watchman receives a dream or vision about a cataclysmic event, they should be very careful about how they give warning. Before speaking, they should find out the status and meaning of the events they have seen.

Again, if the trumpet does not sound a clear call, who will get ready for battle? (1 Cor 14:8).

A cataclysmic vision or dream may have any of the following possible meanings.

1. a symbolic message with a spiritual interpretation,
2. a warning of what Satan is planning, so that we can resist him,
3. a warning event, that is a type of something worse coming,
4. an event that may happen soon
5. an event that is a long way into the future,
6. an event that will only happen, if God's people do not repent.
7. a final judgment on a people that has rejected God. 

Sounding the trumpet is not sufficient. Sharing a vision is not enough. Watchmen are required to sound the trumpet clearly. When sharing a vision or dream, they should also explain its meaning. If this does not happen, God's people will become confused. Too much confusion could lead to Christians being defeated and God's name being mocked.

Tower and Gate

Watchmen are not there to boost the name of the enemy and paralyze God's people with fear. Their purpose is to warn the people of danger, while it is still a long way off. This gives the people living outside the city time to get behind the walls where they will be safe. The watchman's warning also gives the city leaders time to prepare their defenses, so they can repel the enemy when he comes.
The safety of a city depends on the watchmen being on the watchtower. It also depends on the leaders at the gate heeding their warning. If the watchmen and the leaders at the gate of the city each do their task, the enemy's plans should be defeated and the city kept safe.

The role of the watchmen is important. God responds to the attacks of the enemy by exposing his plans, and countering with something even more powerful.

Today's spiritual watchmen are just as important to the kingdom of God. But the Church has become so familiar and comfortable with the world that our watchmen may not notice when adverse conditions enter our boundaries. In this hour God is saying, "Watch the boundaries I have set for you, so that the enemy does not gain access to your inheritance." (Chuck Pierce - The Future War of the Church).

These watchmen were especially trained to be able to distinguish the enemy from their brethren. Only those with the best vision and judgement were given these Posts. They could not be overly prone to sound the alarm, or to request that the gates be opened. They had to be accurate in their discernment. If there were too many false alarms the people would begin to disregard them. If they were careless and let an enemy in the gate, they could jeopardize the entire city. This was an extremely crucial position for which accuracy and dependability were required (Rick Joyner - The Ministry of a Watchman).

Three Types of Vision

Christians with discernment can receive three types of vision.

1. Some visions show what the people deserve. They show what the wrath of God demands.   Amos 7:1.
2. The Holy Spirit sometimes shows his people what Satan wants to do. When people turn away from God, they give him authority to fulfil his plans. He is a destroyer, so these visions are often destructive. Spiritual people who are not Christians may also receive these visions, but from a different source.
3. Some visions show what God is going to do to turn his people back to him, as his wrath is tempered by his mercy. The purpose of these visions is refining and purifying (Amos 7:7-9).  

Day 8 of 21 - We all have a story to tell

Arise and Shine for the glory of the Lord has risen among you. Isaiah 60:1

Good morning, Good day, Good Afternoon!  Good Evening...Let me tell you, it's a good day!  It's a good moment.  It's just good...Why?  Because His mercies are new every morning...that's why!

I just completed a four-week Grief group.  I took it because I have a degree in Christian Counseling and it's time to get into that aspect of my life.  I have mentored and counseled people in my life and amazing testimonies have come from their lives. Some of those testimonies came out of my darkest moments of my life.  We all have a story to tell!  As we tell our stories of hope and spark inspiration into others about our Testimony!  It's inspires hope to 'DO it AGAIN, Lord; this time for me!'...

In the grief group, I had to do a few things that I just am not that confident in...1) Drawing...if you could see me right now, you'd see this:

My stick figures are questionable!  So when the facilitator said, 2) 'You're gonna draw a picture of your favorite Christmas memory.' 

It went from this facial expression to this inner monologue:

I don't have many childhood favorite Christmas memories...Hmm...o except when the Salvation Army would bring my sister and I a few gifts.  When the representatives from the Salvation Army left, so would the excitement of it being Christmas.  I tried to really reflect and remember what cherished Christmas memory I could draw as an adult.  My family is evolving.  I only have one child still in school and he just started High School, so the beauty of Christmas through the eyes of a child has quickly faded.  Every Christmas when my children were little was special...So I finally thought about how we have always made sugar cookies together.  My kids didn't even have time this year for that.  So, as I began displaying my favorite memory through a sharpie onto paper...I pushed through my two weaknesses...

Going through four weeks of this grief group, I've realized that I have suppressed a lot of grief deep down inside.  What I thought was gonna be a 'training experience' became a much needed debrief for my heart.  As I dug deep and visited those places of hidden pain, I looked around the room and saw beautiful, amazing people that all had a story to tell.

The traumas of life had drawn us all together for this captured moment in our lives.  Each story was so sad and heartbreaking. We cried with one another and felt empathy for one another as we shared our stories of grief and trauma.

Each one of us wanting a happy ending to our stories.  The thing about mourning is that God says it only last for the night because joy comes in the morning.  Each one could truly empathize with the other because our stories were so different but yet so similar.  We had lost loved ones through various traumas.  We knew pain...and we knew emptiness and we could comfort each other with a deep remorse and compassion. 

We all have a story to tell.  When the Author of our stories is given permission to write HisStory upon our hearts, we have to know, trust, and believe that it will have a happy ending, no matter the depth and adventure of each chapter...HisStory is an ultimate love story.   It's the greatest story ever told of a Savior and rescuer.  It does end well!  It has the best ending ever written! 

I heard this song today by He is We.  It's called 'Happily ever after.'  I shortened the original video minus a few words.  I felt this song to be all of us.  We all have a story to tell!  As I am on day 8 of my Daniel Fast, I am losing things deep within that I've held onto for way too long.  I feel as though my spirit is gaining strength and health as I let go of toxins and negativity.  I will overcome. God promises that to me in His word, IF; I do my part in that promise.  My part is sharing my testimony and being covered under His blood.

"And they overcame him because of the blood of the Lamb and because of the word of their testimony, and they did not love their life even when faced with death.  So be glad, heavens, and those who live in them! How terrible it is for the earth and the sea, because the Devil has come down to you, filled with rage, knowing that his time is short!"  Revelation 12:11-12

There is a promised Happily Ever After when we DO NOT love our lives even when faced with death.  Through the blood of the lamb.  Jesus is our savior.  He is our Superman...Our rescuer...Our redeemer.  Through him, we WILL tell our story about His Story and the rest is HIStory!  We Overcome! 

Listen to the song!  We all have a story to tell!

Day 5 of 21 "Pioneer"

Arise and Shine for the glory of the Lord has risen among you - Isaiah 60

I'm hearing the word 'Pioneering.'  What is the official definition of that word?

I am a Pioneer in my family.  I am a Pioneer in my sphere of influence.  God has set me aside.  He has taught me things by His Spirit that I did not know about. 

The purpose of being a Pioneer is not for your life, but for other's lives and for your children, and their children and all of God's precious treasures that he places in your life; sons and daughters!

I did not grow up in a 'normal' family.  My family consisted of my sister and I.  At times living with my grandma, other times living with my mother.  I did not have a father.  I was fatherless.  I did not have an active mother in my life.  She was sick...all the time.  She was medically diagnosed with a variety of clinical mental disorders. 

My childhood dream was to grow up and become a mother.  My goal was to be the bi-polar opposite of what life had shown me a mother to be.  I'm so truly thankful that I completely gave my life to the Lord at 21 years old.  I became a mother at age 25.  I was so unexperienced.  My only inclination was do the complete opposite of what was familiar to me.  I found myself continually on my knees crying out to God to help me and show me how to mother.  He faithfully spoke to me and taught me how to fill that role.  I was a pioneer in my family.  My children will never, ever know the pain and hardships I knew.  For that, I know, my life has gone before and prepared and opened up the way for Godly mothers to follow in my bloodline.  Thank you, Father, for loving a wretch like me!!!

When you are found by God; broken, bruised, shattered, destroyed, naked, ashamed, wrecked, violated, abused, neglected, dead inside....there is a lot of resurrection and healing that needs to occur to make the broken pieces of what was once called a life; into something that resembles that distant shadow.  I began laying down every hidden, splintered piece of my fractured-smashed life before His throne.  I now see myself as a new creation.  A mosaic masterpiece crafted by the Great Artisan's hands. 

When I envision what my broken life must have looked liked to the Lord.  I picture the shattered shards of my life similar to the picture on the left.  Always meant to have color and purpose, but dangerous to touch.  Potentially causing harm to the person trying to pick any of it up.  That was the case in my late teenage years.  Broken people, break people.  Hurt people, hurt people.  I was a broken mess.

The Lord found me in the refuse of my life.  He began picking up each piece of my broken life and making sense of it to me.  I'm thankful that he walked with me each step of the way. 

 

I now envision my life as the 2nd picture to the left.  My life has been repurposed to worship and please him.  My life is not my own.  My eyes are continually lifted up to where my help comes from.  My life is a dance with the lover of my soul.  When he says move to the left, I am compelled to move to the left.  When He says move to the right, I move to the right. 

Pioneering is something that I didn't sign up for; but was always destined for.  Day 5 of 21 of this Daniel Fast reminds me of living a life of isolation.  Since birth, I have been alone.  Neither parent nurtured me.  My grandma worked two and three jobs.  Loneliness was my friend.  Childhood, I had no choice, as I grew I began choosing not to be alone.  Adulthood, I find myself not caring if I look like a fool or standing out in a crowd.  As a child of God, I soon realized this had all been training.  When the Lord tells you to do something, it will not rate high in popularity.  In my experience, the Lord would tell me to do something and I would look to the left, to the right, behind me, in front of me and not seeing people in my sphere doing the same thing.  The impression was that God was, once again, using my life to pioneer my sphere of influence.

The specific example I will give is the first time I was crying out to the Lord for justice in my personal life.  He spoke to me and said, 'Do a Daniel Fast.'  I said, 'A what?'  At that time, in my culture, it was not a common thing to FAST.  The Lord told me to read the book of Daniel.  I walked away preparing my mind, heart, and flesh that we were gonna do this thing.  I started with 10 days not eating from the 'King's table.' (Daniel 1:8).  It was hard the first few days, but by the time you begin to establish a habit, it becomes second nature.  However, that flesh of mine cried out for things that I never typically desired.  "O, flesh, look, there's a Crispy Creme donuts....ooooo donuts...let's stop...the light is on...they're even free!"  This entire inner monologue is conversing as I'm spectating and rationalizing that I don't really even like donuts. 

I made it through the first 10 day Daniel Fast.  Then the Lord said, read Daniel 10.  As I read it, I knew he was challenging me to move onto a 21 day Daniel Fast.  Meanwhile, I must emphasize, at that time in my life, I had no knowledge that books were even out there regarding Daniel Fasts.  This was all new territory for me.  I was walking by faith.  I didn't know about all the health blogs or health benefits of the Daniel Fast.  I was simply obeying Holy Spirit. 

In 2005, a friend and I decided to do the Daniel Fast together.  At that time, I blogged daily on Myspace.  We would blog daily about what God was showing us for our nation, how to pray, etc...I would post progress and revelations in my blog.

On Thursday, May 5, 2005, I received a very harsh message from someone in regards to my Daniel Fast.  I am sharing this because when you Pioneer, you need to EXPECT opposition; especially when it is a God-thing!

Kandi,

A friend sent me an e-mail about you and your fast.  I consider myself to be spiritually connected to God and I think your e-mail to be blasphemy.  I have attended a Presbyterian church service all my life and pray always.  I don't understand why you would go on a 21 day fast of fruit.  Are U crazy?  This is not bible times.  I believe you are taking the bible at a literal sense that is not intended for our times.  I am an educated individual.  I am a teacher and also a Christian and felt it necessary to email you.  I was disturbed by your email.  My God is not your God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!you need to remember that we are in different times and GOD understands our present situation and circumstances.  I encourage you to keep praying and a fast is not a bad idea but you need to realize that your kids need a competent mother who can make sound decisions that will effect them for the rest of their lives! A mother who is on a 21 day fast is not able to care for God's most treasured!  I also feel the need to let you in on something, referring to God as Daddy is so disrespectful!  He is to be honored in every respect.  people have their own views but yours disturb me.  You sound like an extremist.  If I'm wrong feel free to write back and convince me but as of now I am disturbed by your rambling.

The accuser of the brethren accused me in every single weak area of my life through this rebuttal.  'Are u Crazy?'  I didn't want to be like my mom!  'Your kids need a competent mother.'  I didn't want to be like my mom! 'My God is not your God!' (TRUTH!!!!) 'You referring to God as Daddy is so disrespectful!'  I was FATHERLESS! 'You sound like an extremist!'  (TRUTH!!!) Once again, running into my ABBA DADDY's arms...He comforted me and poured his amazing love and grace over and into me and filled my mouth with love and wisdom as I responded to my critic.

That was 11 years ago.  Daniel Fasts are not only the 'thing' now, but doctors enforce them because of the health benefits to our bodies.  But when we are pioneering, this kind of reaction is to be expected!  It's funny because the Daniel Fast wasn't so much about being healthy physically, it was I wanted to hear from God.  I wanted to see him move on my behalf.  I wanted to empty myself out and rid myself of spiritual toxins that kept me unhealthy and unable to receive from him.  The response to this critic was exactly that...It was his response...filled with love, wisdom and grace.  She never responded back to my reply. 

Are you a pioneer in your family or in your sphere of influence?  Have you had nothing but resistance as your pave the way for others to follow you?  If so, you are right where you need to be at the right time in your life.

Father,
I thank you for the gift of trail blazing a way for others to follow.  I thank you for blueprints and strategies from heaven.  I pray for a release of new innovative ideas and spiritual weapons that are from your heart.  May you fill us with the strength to complete each task you set us out to do and your great grace to accomplish it.  I thank you that as we rid ourselves of toxins in our lives, you fill us to overflowing with the newness of your Spirit and health is our portion in every area of our lives.  We love you, Lord.  You are beautiful and Great!  Thank you for strength in our weaknesses.  Even as John the Baptist prepared the way for Jesus and lived a life of wild adventure,  prepare our hearts to live to complete abandonment to where you want to lead us and blaze trails for your kingdom to come!

As Long As You Love Me

Arise and Shine for the glory of the Lord has risen among you!  Isaiah 60:1

Day four of 21. It's a very low-key day.  I'm just pondering and reflecting a lot in my mind.  Tears; as I reflect my life and choices.  I stand by my belief that the Lord has guided me in the portion of my life I have served him and loved him with all of my heart, my soul, and my mind.  I have to know and trust that I am exactly where I am today because He has always been for me and not against me.

I was gonna go to the gym today and take a spin class...I just needed a day to reflect; to ponder and ask the Lord to speak to my heart.  Spinning class...my thoughts are spinning.  My heart; walking away from the familiar path it has known.  I feel a dirge in my spirit...I sit at the piano...I play and cry.  I pray; tears fall...There is a deep lament in my heart; full of things I want to say that will fall upon deaf ears.  There are words I want to sing as I play but to whom would listen.  I need to sing what is holding my heart hostage...the words come out; a release.  Tears sting my cheeks...

Jeremiah 2:7-9 "I brought you into a bountiful country, to eat its fruit and its goodness.  But when you entered, you defiled My land and made My heritage an abomination.  The priests did not say, 'Where is the Lord?'  And those who handle the law did not know Me:  The rulers also transgressed against Me: The prophets prophesied by Baal, and walked after things that do not profit.  "Therefore, I will yet bring charges against you," says the Lord, "And against your children's children.  I will bring charges."

Jeremiah 2:25 But you said, 'There is no hope.  No!  For I have loved aliens, and after them I will go.'

Jeremiah 3:1-"They say, 'If a man divorces his wife, And she goes from him And becomes another man's, May he return to her again?  Would not that land be greatly polluted?  But you have played the harlot with many lovers; Yet return to Me," says the Lord.

Jeremiah 3:7- "And I said, after she had done all these things, 'Return to Me.' But she did not return. 

Jeremiah 3:14-16 - "Return, O backsliding children," says the Lord; "for I am married to you.  I will take you, one from a city and two from a family, and I will bring you to Zion.  "And I will give you shepherds according to My heart, who will feed you with knowledge and understanding.  "Then it shall come to pass, when you are multiplied and increased in the land in those days," says the Lord, "that they will say, NO MORE, 'The ark of the covenant of the LORD.'  It shall not come to mind, nor shall they remember it, nor shall they visit it, nor shall it be made anymore.

I began writing a song of lament from these Scripture references.  We are the Bride of Christ, yet we continually commit adultery on him.  We continually turn to other lovers.  We continually remain unrepentant and sinful in all of our ways.  He longs for His bride to desire him as her first love.  He continually loves and forgives her transgressions over and over, in spite of.  Why, O Israel do you refuse to turn away from your lusts and desires?

Jeremiah 2:11-13 - 'But My people have changed their Glory for what does not profit.  Be astonished, O heavens, at this, and be horribly afraid; be very desolate," says the Lord, "For My people have committed two evils:  They have forsaken Me, the fountain of living waters, and hewn themselves cisterns--broken cisterns that can hold no water.

Yet, the Lover of our Souls, continually asks us to Return...Return...Return to Me!  Mercy, Grace, Mercy, Grace, unconditional love, undeserving forgiveness, unmerited favor.  The Lord is slow to anger...He's compassionate and gracious.  He is in love with His bride...

This was a Spiritual Spinning Class.  This spiritual spinning class trumped the physical one today.  In the song I wrote, part of the lyrics read:

I remember you, in the kindness of your youth.
Will you return to me?  I was your first love.

I will remember you, the Love of your betrothal.
You chased after me in the wilderness.
Will you return to me?  I was your first love.

Of course, I didn't finish the song, but the heaviness in my heart lifted.  I felt a release.  I was able to walk away and KNOW the Lord kissed away my pain.  He KNOWS our same pain.  He personally experienced continual rejection and abandonment.  He gathers our tears.  He counts them and records them.  He draws us close and touches the pain.  He Loves us so much more than we could ever hope or imagine.

I began hearing another song playing in my mind. Mind you, five years ago, both my daughters and my niece were personally escorted by me to Allentown to see Justin Bieber in concert.  I don't listen to secular music...So, I KNOW the Lord was making a point of Justin Bieber's song, "As Long as You love me."

I heard the Lord say, "As long as you love me, I will be your FIRST love. As long as you love Me.  I will NEVER leave you, nor FORSAKE you.  As long as you love me." I will be here for you. As long as you love me!!!  We are God's treasure; as God desires us to make him our treasure!  God is our gold, he is our silver.  He is our inheritance; our reward. 

Here I leave you with the lyrics of that song.

As Long as You Love Me

By Justin Bieber, Big Sean

As long as you love me (love me, love me)
As long as you love me (love me, love me)
As long as you love me

We're under pressure,
Seven billion people in the world trying to fit in
Keep it together,
Smile on your face even though your heart is frowning
But hey now, you know girl,
We both know it's a cruel world
But I will take my chances

As long as you love me
We could be starving, we could be homeless, we could be broke
As long as you love me
I'll be your platinum, I'll be your silver, I'll be your gold
As long as you love, love me, love me
As long as you love, love me, love me

I'll be your soldier, fighting every second of the day for your dreams girl
I'll be your Hova, you can be my Destiny's Child on a scene girl
So don't stress, don't cry, we don't need no wings to fly
Just take my hand

As you love me we could be starving, we could be homeless, we could be broke
As long as you love me
I'll be your platinum, I'll be your silver, I'll be your gold
As long as you love, love me, love me
As long as you love, love me,

I don't know if this makes sense, but you're my hallelujah
Give me a time and place, and I'll rendezvous, and I'll fly you to it,
I'll beat ya there
Girl you know I got you
Us, trust
A couple of things I can't spell without you
Now we are on top of the world, 'cause that's just how we do
Used to tell me sky's the limit, now the sky's our point of view
Man now we stepping out like whoa (oh God)
Camera's point and shoot,
Ask me what's my best side, I stand back and point at you, you
You the one that I argue with, I feel like I need a new girl to be bothered,
But the grass ain't always greener on the other side,
It's green where you water it
So I know we got issues baby true true true
But I'd rather work on this with you
Than to go ahead and start with someone new
As long as you love me

As you love me we could be starving, we could be homeless, we could be broke
As long as you love me
I'll be your platinum, I'll be your silver, I'll be your gold
As long as you love, love me,
As long as you love, love me

As long as you love me
I'll be your silver, I'll be your gold
Love me,
As long as you love, love me,
Please don't go (love me, love me)
Please don't go (love me, love me)
As long as you love, (love me, love me)
As long as you love, (love me, love me)
As long as you love me